January 2009
15 posts
I'm not the bad boy type.
Just an awful person. And I no longer sympathize with myself. “But I’m Jeremy” is dead. I hope I remain.
i'm still frustrated from last night.
i am going too hard. and i would much rather go home. but that’s not an option. failure, however, is.
i always wanted to portray a bad boy image. i always told myself, “i’d be really really cool then.” now i can’t recall what was ever good about me.
and so the show proceeds. only this is no true life, this is real life. i still refuse to acknowledge that.
In one year.
samwantspeace:
In one year, I will have applied to college and may know what school I got it to. That freaks me out more than any other things in my life right now.
oh dear.
yeah, i was trying to forget that i’m in that position currently. thanks, sam. really.
jk, but yeah it’s pretty intense. oh but it’s actually like two months from now before most colleges send...
2%.
and i’ll have a d- in chemistry. i’m so stoked.
i suppose a d- is not something to be proud of. but considering without it i’d have to take another semester of science, and probably not get into most colleges, i’m pretty down with it.
for so long i’ve had such a pessimistic, self-destructive mindset. maybe things are changing. supp, obama? ;]
for a second there i forgot i was such a...
now i remember.
wasn’t today supposed to be all about change? i’d be totally down for some of that right about now.
sorry i’m such a failure. i’d do better next year. but regrettably, there isn’t any.
fear and loathing in west virginia.
i hoed. and i hoed. i hoed until i couldn’t hoe no mo’. then, speaking of hoe, pre-rachel zoe makeover nicole richie appeared and invited me to lunch and some shopping on rodeo drive. i was exhausted but i guess the oxy was kicking in so i was down for an adventure. and i couldn’t feel any pain. actually, i couldn’t feel the whole right side of my body. but i wasn’t...
i made a list.
i don’t think i’ve done that before. i feel better now. maybe everything will be alright.
correction: YES IT IS!
only i would turn in an EARLY decision agreement LATE.
oh dear, i’ll never make it in the real world.
blackout.
i lit many candles, as i’m afraid of the dark. i blew them all out, as i’m afraid of fire. now i’m sitting in the dark, with the exception of my lit up phone. it seems i am constantly at odds with myself. but i just remembered we have battery-operated fake candles. my evening is saved! i’m easily excitable!
when it's good then it's good it's so good till it...
but i’m jeremy. bad things aren’t supposed to happen to me. but they haven’t; i let them.
maybe i’ve spent too much time repenting for my good behavior. maybe it’s time to start repenting for the bad.
i'm not going to participate in any more "risky...
starting…NOW!